Saturday, February 6, 2010

Lack

This blog touts itself as a place where this writer will share, now and again, her meditations on struggling through this temporal world with disability. It's not what you might think; it's really quite a life. But there are moments when I grow damn sick and tired of one-handedness, of limping- of lacking ability. I can hear the little voice in my head now that says " be grateful, you are not worse off and get over your sorry self-pity". That, I suppose, the theologians would say, is the voice of evil itself trying to assert that one's pain and suffering is of no matter, because the precept of meaninglessness stands for the proposition that nothing matters, not even or especially suffering. Thanks be to God that proposition fails miserably. As we've discussed before at this blog, a proposition of truth, even if its core is to assert that nothing matters, still asserts truth. That my friends is the wily answer for the father of lies. When your arch enemy attacks with the wind of relativism whispering "did God really say, or stop whining, you don't matter anyway", you must turn with the sword of truth which is the Word of God - stabbing falsehood well and good.

Saint Paul encouraged the Corinthian church by saying:

I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:10

Because my Saviour knows my every need and the excruciating minutiae of my weaknesses, I can rest in him. Do I always? Sadly, no. Thankfully, his grace is sufficient, even when I wrestle with lack.

3 comments:

CaroleAnn said...

Audacious statement...'I delight in weakness...', yet the hope of it spurs me on. Many have trod this frightful path...be encouraged, friend. You are not alone.
H O L D F A S T!!!!
ca

Karen A. Fentress said...

Thank you, Carole Ann, for the encouragement & for your walking alongside in the journey!

Emily said...

Karen
I just found yoor blog and I am so impressed. In just one blog you have expressed so many things my heart has known but I have not found words for yet. Thank you for sharing. I look forward to reading more. I have been looking for a place to discuss these very things. Glad I found your blog!